Why Creation (and God) Rocks the Hizouse

first of all let me say since the last time i posted on here i’m now a high school graduate and also 18 years old which is totally awesome.

But that’s not what i’m trying to talk about today.  i want to talk about the rain and how awesome it is.

The first year i went to creation which was two years and one week ago, it was the first day of the festival, my birthday, and Skillet was schedualed to open the evening, and then Switchfoot, which are both really awesome.  I had never been to creation before, but my freinsd said they wanted to go up right in front of the stage, where the mosh pit is where everybody gets hardcore crazy.  the thing is, its so packed up there that to get even close to the front of the stage we had to leave our camp site at noon, for the concerts that start at 6 in the evening.  so we missed dinner, but ya know, switchfoot is worth it.

Like i said it was my first year and i had never seen skillet before, and the truth is, i didnt really believe they could be quite christian.  i mean, just look them up on youtube.  but they are, for real.  anyways, right after skillet but before switchfood, which was around 8, there is a half-hour break for them to set up.  during that break, it started raining and pouring hardcore.  the concerts go on in the rain, but the stage is made of metal so when it lightnings they tell everyone to go back to their campsite.  but come one, the security guards were teenage girls who were like, “we signed up this morning!” so we werent gonna listen to them when they told us to go back.   it was awesome beacuse everyone else except for my group and maybe ten other people went back to their sites, and when they did we moved up front, so we were literally on the fence, right in front of the stage.  even when the real hired croud control people came and told us to leave, we just ignored them. 

finally pastor harry came on, hes the guy in charge of the whol ordeal, and he said switchfoot would be coming on soon (this was two hours later) and then he said let’s pray, like he does everytime he gets on stage, and the first thing he said was, “dear god, thank you for blessing us with the awesome rain” and everyone applauded. 

this year it rained again (i was wearing my rain jacket- i have a red jacket and everytime i wear it it rains, no joke) during Lincoln Brewster.  it was awesome again.  at first we  were all like, “balls! it’s raining!” and we put on our ponchos and our jackets and crawled under our tarps, but then Brewster came on and he was all like “Dear God, Bring it on!!” and so we all danced around and partied in the rain, and then we made slip ‘n slides on the tarps and it was really fun.

That’s whats most awesome about creation, everything is a blessing.  ya know, cuz two years ago if it didn’t rain so hard then i wouldnt have gotten so close to the stage for when switchfoot came on and it was probably the best birthhday i ever had.  i think you can pretty much look at anything like that, like anytime anything bad happens you can just be like, “dear God, Thank you for giving me this flat tire,” or, “Thank you for giving me a brain that forgets my wallet at home” or something like that, not in a sarcastic way but like in a real gratefulness way, and even though it doesnt really make sense, it makes it all seem kind of funny.

I love you… you are my freind.

Today i was in my creative writing class and my freind was telling me that she broke up with her boyfreind the night before.  When i asked her why, she said because she found out that he said “I love you” to another girl over the phone.  when she asked him about it, he said that he loves this girl “as a freind” and he loves her “as a girlfreind.”

This is bs.  Everyone else that we were sitting with said it’s ok to tell someone else that you love them because you can love someone as a freind and you can love someone as a pertner.  Bullshit! sorry but it called for it.

I just hate it when people say “I love him/her/you like a freind.”  I mean, loving isn’t something  you can do to someone “as a freind.”  That’s like if i said “I drove my car to school like it was a bicycle,” or “i played my piano like it was a clarinet:” you can only drive a car like it’s a car, you can only play a piano like it’s a piano, and if you love someone, they are more than a freind to you.

that’s what loving is i’m pretty sure.  it means you have feelings for someone that go beyond freindship.  basically what i’m saying is, unless you say it to your husband/wife/GF/BF or a family member, you are probably being an ILoveYouSlut.

Because when that boy tells her that he loves her, how does she know if he’s saying it as a freind or if he really means it? there is no way to tell just by hearing the words.  It would be more appropriate if he had said to that other girl, “I like you as a freind,” or, “I usually enjoy talking to you.”  It would have been most appropriate to say nothing, because if it’s not your lover or your mother, you shouldn’t say it at all (to people.  who cares if you say i love my car or i love this burger.  i’m talkin about people.).

I think she was right to break up with him for that.  ok maybe she could have just told him not to do that anymore, but she probably wanted to break up with him anyways.

the tides have changed.

so i was watching “Glee” the other day after american idol and i gotta say, i’m ready to see more; however, i also think it’s pretty lame that stereotypes from the 70s and 80s and 90s are still around.

example number one- handicapped people being losers. in the show the football team locked the wheel chair boy in the portapot and were gonna knock it down (thank goodness the justin timberlake wannebe saved the day).  come on.  i can’t speak for every school, but if someone did that to amber or amber or Miss Jones (the three people in my school in wheelchairs- 2 girls named amber and one guidance counselor)  they would be shot down.  seriously if anybody is mean to the kids in the wheel chairs they would be called heartless jerks by literally everyone.

Example number Two- Gay people being made fun of because they’re gay. this is not 1875 people don’t burn homos at the steak anymore.  at my school anyway us gay people are the coolest ones around: we’re different and we don’t even have to try.  we’re so cool that we even have people pretend to be like us who really aren’t.  we have our own wannabes! nobody throws pee balloons at us.

Example number three- glee club kids being nerds. i wouldn’t say this is unique to my school but it’s probably not very common: at my school the glee club kids are the popular ones.  The art, music, and film kids are the envy of every greasy little sophomore.  we (i include myself because i took art for four years and was in band for 5 and i’m taking video production now) pretty much run the school: our artwork and photos line the hallways, our concerts and performance brind in tons of $$, and when our videos play on the tv’s during activity period every body stops what they’re doing to be entertained.

If i were only in a wheel chair i would be the most popular kid around and television writers would be calling me a loser.

oklahoma

ok just so everybody knows as i write this i can only feel half my mouth.  i just got back from having a cavity filled.  it was very unsettling because we were watching the today show in the dentists office and the new kids on the block were on there and the dentist ladies were all like “they’re so old blah blah blah a lady came in the a nkotb t-shirt and she was like 40 blah blah blah” all the time they were trying to numb me up and if i didn’t have a giant needle in my mouth perhaps i would have said HELLO! i would appreciate a little concentration!

but anyways…that’s not what i’m writing about.  i was thinking about  oklahoma.  not the state exactly, just the shape.  because in German class we have all these charts to memorise, where on the top row you have all the genders (masc. fem. neut. and plural) and down the left we have the case (nominativ:subject; accusative:direct object/ object of an accustive preposition; Dative: Indirect object/ object of a dative preposition; and Genitive [we laugh cuz it sounds like genital]:possessive pronouns and objects of genitive prepositions) and in each little box is an adjective ending.  any of the adjectives that describe any of those things has to have an ending on it that is determined by what gender the noun is that your describing and what case that noun is.

the first time we learned that chart we notice that everything in nominative: masc, fem, and neut; and accusative: fem, and neut, were all the same ending, “e.”  you probably haven’t figured this out, but that makes the shape of oklahoma. 

anyways, our teacher was the one who pointed that out to us so we could remember it.  unfortunately we only use that chart when the adjective also follows a definate article (der die das den dem des or in english- “the”) so we only use that chart about one forth of the time we used adjectives.  so then this year, someone asked, “who came up with calling it oklahoma?” and someone said it had to be Frau Blount, but Herr Unruh said he rarely gets territorial, but he came up with it.

ok.  so that isnt a very good example, but i was just thinking about how wierd people get about making sure they get credit for their ideas.  like Tie tuesday for example.  This kid in my german class wears ties every tuesday, and the goal was to get everyone to wear ties on tuesdays and i’m a big fan of ties so i wore them on tuesdays too. 

Then, one day, i forgot to wear a tie, or i didn’t have time or something, and someone was like, “what happened to your tie tuesdays?” and then the kid who came up with it was all like “that was mine! i came up with tie tuesday! blah blah blah!” and i’m like hello! the goal was to get everyone wearing ties.

i mean isn’t that one of the goals any time you come up with things? to get them to cath on? like this girl who came up with “crap on a crap cracker” was like, “it’s gonna cath on and everybody’s gonna be saying it.” but then anytime somebody does she gets all demonic and says “that’s mine.”

so i guess anytime anyone comes up with anything they want it to spread, and they want everybody to say it, but they want credit for it everytime they do.  which is incredibly unrealistic.

idk. it was just something i noticed.

My English teacher made a huge error.

He got out a crate of 1984 books and set them on the dest in front of me and told everybody to come up and get one but nobody did.  everyone was like, “we’re not getting one!” and stuff like that.  in the end the teacher just passed them out and i felt bad for him because he couldn’t get us to do anything and i hope he doesn’t think he can get anyone to read that stupid book.

because i’ve never heard of a more over-rated book than 1984, asside posssibly from fairenheit 451.  here’s what sparknotes says about that book: “In 1976, students totally loved this futuristic novel. Now it’s more of a history book, and some people think an updated version called 2024 needs to be released.”

And it’s completely true- because guess what, ever since we were in fifth grade our teachers have been like, “watch out for big brother!” and, “make sure your car doesn’t have on-star, they can record your convoes just like big brother!” i even had a teacher when i was in 8th grade who put his face on a piece of paper and wrote on it “big brother is watching you” and made copies and put them up all over the wall beside his “pave the planet” posters and his “i know a lost cause when i see one that’s why i don’t recycle” posters. 

It’s so stupid, because we know that we could be followed on surveillence cameras and by credit card purchases, i mean come one, we’ve seen eagle-eye and every other science fiction movie, but we’re not scared, because few of us are involved in large scale conspiracies.

i haven’t even read the book and i don’t plan to.  i didn’t read Lord of the flies but i could pretty much sum it up for you.  and btw most people in my school think forcing us to read LOTF is a school admin plot to get us all to stop believing in God, and also that A Separate Peace is about Gay guys, and Walden is quite possible the least relevant book in existance. 

i’d like to know when they’re going to start having us read books that are actually going to be relevant to our lives and teach us a lesson about the world that we could and would actually use instead of science fiction tales that are over-rated and who’s theme doesn’t scare us because we already know the lesson it’s trying to teach and we still couldn’t care less about it.

and if he was going to write a book about the future why didn’t he make it like 2084, i mean come on, nobody thought that was going to happen in less then ten years. 

that teacher that i told you about, the one who was anarchist-anticonformist-poster-happy, told us that 1984 was not fiction, but that the age of big brother was upon us.  If it were, why do we still need to read about it happening in the future?

kudos to dr. suess

“Be who you are and say what you feel, because those who mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.”

It’s on my facebook status too.

this is what’s not fair.

hear me out on this one because it’s probably not going to end like you think.

there is this really tall black jock kid who walks around with a fo-hawk that used to always call me gay, and now it’s a compliment but for the first bunch of years of school up until like this year and last year, i was denying it so it was an insult.  now it’s like, yeah, so?

anyways, i decided that since i was out to pretty much everyone now the next time he asked me if i was gay i was going to say yeah and proud and that’s exactly what happened yesturday in the lunch line.  he said “are you gay?” and by the way this is a kid who’s not even my freinds and i don’t even like him so it’s most certainly none of his business in the world if i am or not but how can i say yeah and proud without being proud?

so anyway that’s what i said and he totally freaked out.  that’s the first- i mean come on.  this is not 1975.  they don’t hang you by the neck untill dead anymore being gay is not a death sentance. nobody i’ve ever told has ever cared at all except for one girl who told me to stop being gay because it’s a sin ( i reminded her that according to the bible so is it a sin for a woman to wear jeans or pants at all and also that there are 365 rules about hetero sexuality and only 6 for gays and finally that the reason Jesus was sent to us was because God was tired of sending people to hell so he allowed us to be forgiven and there are no rules about homos after the birth of jesus).  anyways i’ve resolved that if anyone doesn’t like me because of me being gay, then it is their problem and their loss.  not mine.

i really need to stop using the word but ANYWAYS this black boy asked me stuff like why would you be gay and i tried to explain it to him that i didn’t have a choice and he asked me what do i mean and come on english is english i said, i was never given a choice, and then he said “women are beautiful!” and i didn’t say anything else because like i said it’s his problem not mine.  and then when i was walking away i saw him talking to his freinds and they were looking at me and pointing at me and i heard him say “that kid’s freakin gay!” to his little sophomore freinds with names like Brently and Zane and keegan.

When i heard that part about women being beautiful it annoyed me because, is everyone suposed to think women are beautiful?  if i was a girl, should i still think women are beautiful? i just think it’s so stupid for someone to have ideas about what a man has to do or be like to be a man and what a woman has to do to or be like to be a woman.  last time i checked people get to define that for themselves- and no one else.

the part that’s not fair is not that someone doesn’t like me just because i’m gay- i don’t like how people are like that but i’m pretty used to the idea (even though this was the first time anyone said anything to my face about it; i texted that other girl). the part thats not fair is that i should be above blogging about it.  i shouldn’t even give him any thought at all.  if it was really his problem and his loss than i wouldn’t need to go somewhere searching for validation.  and then i  can’t even talk about what happened without voiding my previous statements.  so that’s what’s not fair.

and by the way- i do have pride and i’m not about to go through my life hiding it because that’s not fair either.

“sexting”

good lord i can’t even stand that word it’s such a stupid word.

First let me tell a story about a polar bear in Germany.  we were looking at news articles in German in German the other day (haha in german the language in german the class) and there was one there about a stupid 36 year old woman who climbed over the fence at the zoo and climbed in to swim with the polar bears, she even swam back and forth around them before she was eaten by one of them.  relax he didn’t kill her, just took a bite out of her.  The german zoo is sueing her for teresspassing and causing a ruckus.

someone said they’re glad to know she’s being sued, and i am too.   they suggested that in america the woman would probably sue the zoo, it’s not hard to believe because i remember a few years ago when a tiger attacked a woman and they put the tiger down. 

i mean what would anybody expect a wild animal to do like a tiger or a polar bear? they’re wild! they attack people! it’s what they do!

This morning in the library i was reading people because i was finished with EW which is always my first choice and there was an article in there about “sexting,” which is like phone sex but it’s with texting.  and also sending naked pictures of urself to people who will most definately send them to all there freinds.

there was talk in the article about making these kids be charged with child pornography and make them register as sex offenders.  what a stupid article!

i know it goes on, i can’t argue with that.  there is a girl in my creative writing class who has naked pictures of all the guys she dated plus a few others on her phone or at least she says she does, i don’t know if she sent them to anyone or what.

but i thought it was so stupid, because if someone sends you a picture, the only way to know what it is is to open it and look at it.  and how can you be arrested for openeing photos that were sent to you phone?  but i think the part they were getting in a fit about was when kids sent the pictures to all there freinds.   but do you know what i say? find the girl who was stupid enough to send a picture of herself to some 13 year old boy and not expect him to send it to all his freinds.

any girl who sends her picture to a boy is just like the woman who jumped into a cage with a bunch of polar bears.  what could you expect from a thirteen year old boy??

It was funny because a 13 year old boy was on dr. phil today who was possibly having to register as a sex offender for sending pictures on to his freinds.  It was funny because you could tell by every single little forced smile that he was on there against his will, saying stuff like “i regret my actions” and “no, sir, i’ll never do it again.”  It was such a waste of time. 

I mean, the simple solution is parents- if u catch ur kid “sexting,” take away the stupid phone! duh.  obviously it’s going to severely injur their social status and they’re probably goin to hate their parents but big deal.  i just think it’s such a stupid thing to make a big deal about. 

and guess what, every single guest on dr. phil including dr. phil himself, said that it was wrong, they shouldn’t do it, but they shouldn’t be arrested have be forced to register as sex offenders because of it.  there i summud up the entire show.

“class meetings”

today was the first day back from easter break and since all i did all weekend long was watch reruns of doogie houser m.d. and scrubs on dvd (it was a medical comedy weekend… i tried switching to seinfeld but it didn’t work) and jamming hardcore on a ukulele it was a pretty unsettling day.

especially because for the first fourty-five minutes of the day we had a “class” meeting and since our school is under stupid construction and we don’t have an auditorium we had it in the gym which of coarse doesn’t have any kind of sound system so whenever the  principle and the assistant principle and the class president and the class vice president and the counselor for students m-z and the counselor for students a-l wanted to talk they had to do it into a little party style karaoke machine and they all felt the need to scream into the microphone so what we actually heard counded pretty much like an adult on charlie brown WHAMP WAHMP WHAMP WHAMP WHAMP-WHAMP.

but it was ok, because they projected a power point with all the information we all already knew.  it would have been helpful if they weren’t projecting a powerpoint with blue backgrounds and blue fonts onto a blue wall.  But like i said, we all already knew the information anyway, because guess what? we had freshmen class meating and sophomore class meatgs and junior class meatings and they are all exactly the same.

someone who is very very pregnant weather it’s the assistant principle or the couselour or the yearbook coordinatore or more lickely someone we’ve never heard of before picks up the mic and says “good morning class of 2009!!! 42 days left!!!”  then she passes it off to a bunch of men with bear guts who remind us that all the school rules still apply for the end of the year.

then they hand it off to the class president, who always manages to stay popular despite his status as the one person in the school who still has school spirit, possibly because like every election for a student, it’s a popularity contest (but at least it’s better then the vote for homecoming queen, then everyone just votes for who’s prettiest or else who’s ugliest- as a very depressing joke).  anyways this guy gets up and tells everyone the class cheer: “we are the trojans 09, we are the trojans 09, we are the trojans and we know how to have a good time” and also the class motto which will appear on the t-shirt: “stay classy” (get it? cuz… we’re a class…)  and then he tries- and fails- to pump everyone up.

and then they dismiss us and tell us to get up one row at a time and exit slowly but everyone gets up at the same time anyway, then we have first period which is 20 minutes longer then planned because the assembly went shorter then planned because some kind of technical difficulty cut some things out.   it’s ok thought becuase after that all the periods are shorter.

i remember one time in sunday school someone was complaining about something similar to this and my sunday school teacher said, “i wish i could tell you that you won’t have to deal with stuff like that when you’re an adult but i can’t…” 

those anarchists are looking better every minute.

“high school”

from now on i’m not going to apologize for forgetting to post because i’m getting bored of it (apologizing- not posting).  every week i have to go to stupid high school or go to sears and sell old people ugly shoes and if i’m not doing that than i’m sitting at  home doing nothing and i will not give up doing nothing to do something!  i post when i post.

i actually did post a few days ago but that was when our internet at our house was bed and kept going out and right after i posted the internet stopped working and the paragraphs i wrote disappeared and i was discouraged and so i didn’t want to post again untill i was positive it would work.  i’m not apologizing though!

so anyway… one of my freinds on facebook put out this note that said go to urbandictionary.com and type in your name to see what it says.  i typed in David and it said that i am “A formidable foe to normal people.”  also that i am going to be the first dictator of american, king of the new peaceful world, and that everyone else is nothing compared to me.  which fits me pretty well.

anyway after that i was fooling around on there and i found a link to the most popular search which was “high school” so i clicked on it and let me tell you the definition was kinda scary because it literrally sounds like they were describing my high school:

[words between these things i put in]

“High school is a failed experiment in preparing young people for the adult world. All high schools in the country were built around 1960 and were designed to hold about half as many students as they currently do. Nothing seems to work quite right in a high school building. The heaters only work during the summer and the air conditioning only works in the winter. The asbestos insulation has all faded out [there was asbestos in my school up untill a few years ago] and the building becomes an oven or a meat locker, depending on the time of year. The plumbing is usually a disaster in high school, with drinking fountains never working but toilets that never stop running.

High schools are usually poorly run by a team of out of touch assholes, also known as Principals, counselors, teachers, and ex-Marine drill sergeants (gym teachers) [actually in my case they are failed driver's ed teachers and people who can't get hired as a principal because they've never been real teacher]. These people seem hell bent on destroying all hope for students through tedious testing [there's the 4site test which we take four times a year to prepair for the PSSA which we take also four times a year and in total waist about 40 days of school], poorly planned projects, educational videos made during the Truman Administration [my favorite is the one with the commercial with little cartoon people singing "i like ike! you like ike! everybody likes ike tonight!" seriously look it up on youtube it's a winner], and text books that mention the Soviet Union on every page [or hitler].

High school is also the place where the stress of growing up and the stress of fitting in join forces to destroy even the strongest among us. Most of High school is not spent learning but involves trying to find friends who aren’t complete douche bags, trying hook up with people of the opposite sex unsuccessfully [or the same sex], combing your hair, buying clothes in the effort that someone will notice you, working out so you will not get your ass kicked everyday, trying desperately to get rid of the zits that have taken over your face, driving a car that a homeless person wouldn’t piss in or riding on an over crowed bus while choking on diesel fumes, while people you don’t know make fun of you worse then your friends do, and on top of all of that, you must act like nothing is wrong in your life.

High school is a place where everyone acts like their lives are great but are really dead inside.

The scars of High School last long after graduation day.”

it’s basically the most accurate piece of literature i’ve ever read.  the other day i was sitting in the library reading entertainment weekly and i just wanted to get up and leave that stupid building.  i remember thinking, i’m not learning anything.  why must i be forced to waist my time here! i truly believe that the entire system is flawed.  i guess it’s entirely possible that it’s just me, but i can’t learn in a classroom sitting on my butt for 8 ours in a tiny little desk  listening to someone who graduated college yesturday reading from bulleted lists on a powerpoint projected up on the three feet between the chalk board and the ceiling.

attendance is a joke to.  i didn’t learn how to get around it untill i was a senior but over the last month i’ve had like ten orthodontist appointments and i didn’t return to school from a single one of them.  actually, one time i did because i didn’t want to miss german one time, so i went home after the appointment, took a nap, and then drove back to school for 8th and 9th period.  the next day i just give them my dr’s note.  if they asked me if i returned to school i would say yes… but they never ask.

it’s been like 13 years and now i understand what the problem is. 

little kids are too young for their own good.  when i was little kid, do you think i cared about math and science and history? no!  i didn’t take anything seriously when i was a little kid.  because i didn’t understand- or didn’t care- that it would matter when i get older what i learned or what i know.

for example at the end of 7th grade when we schedualed classes for for 8th grade i schedualed the lowest math i could so that i wouldn’t have to do a lot of work.  then in 9th grade i had ot take lower math and then when i was a sophomore i was only on Algebra I when everybody else was in geometry or pre-cal.  and i was in a room with a bunch of losers.  then when i was a junior i had to take geometry with a bunch of sophomores and then after that i gave up on math and didn’t take it this year (you only need three years to graduate).  it’s the same thing with science and history. 

i feel like it’s my fault because i made the choice to take basic math in 8th grade- but why did i have to be responsible for making that decision at the age of 13? all i wanted was less homework and an easy A!  and i got screwed on the math front because of it and i blame it on whoever’s job it was to talke me out of it and didn’t.

now i need exactly 1 1/2 credits to graduate yet i’m stuck there all day waisting my time.  i should have taken those stupiud classes in summer school last year and gotten out of that dump.  i mean, the same administration who turns the air conditioner on in the winter and waists 40 days on standerdised tests is in charge of our intellectual well being.  it drives me crazy! 

if only i was really dictator of america…